Quantum Thoughts? Believe it or not...read on here...

Ok so some of you might read this and think I am weird...but this is real, it's true stop and think about it...I have included a link in the title so you can read about it and see what I am talking about.

Today I watched this move "What The Bleep Do We Know". A good friend of mine brought it over. At first I was a little confused until I really started thinking and watching. Have you ever thought about something happening in your life and then it happens. Is it coincidence, did you make it happen? what if you did? How about planning your day to make it what you want it? These are just a few things to think about.

I actually have experienced something over the past couple of years that this theory explains. A while back I started to get panic and anxiety attacks so bad that I would take myself to the emergency room thinking I was going to die. Now this does run in my family so I just figured that it was hereditary, I hated knowing this and I didn't want to live like this. Eventually I was placed on anti anxiety medicine that really messed with my body both physically and mentally to the point where I didn't want to take it, so I stopped. I know bad thing to do right? Well, the ball was in my court, I could try to make my life better or suffer. I didn't want to suffer so I started thinking to myself that it was all in my head, my mom use to tell me this when I would call her in the middle of the night saying that I was having a heart attack. Funny right, well not really. If you have ever gone through this you will understand, and if not just imagine all the symptoms of a stroke or heart attack and your world flashing before you. It SUCKS! So anyways, I put my mind to it and next thing I knew I was starting to feel better. Every once in a while I would have a panic attack but I was starting to see the light and it was bright and beautiful!

Well to this day I feel so much better, I am not taking any medicine and not seeing any specialists...it is all in my head and under MY control. Whenever I feel a panic attack, trust me you know when one will come usually earlier in the day, I just think to myself "that I will be ok" and have as many positive thoughts as possible and it goes away.

There is a lot more to my story and I am sure most of you who read this and understand know there is a lot to each story you have, but this is just an example of what this theory, QUANTUM, is about. YOU yes YOU can control what happens, what will be and how you will be. It is very interesting, and I am going to continue to read about this and look into this. Please take some time to read and even rent the movie, "WHAT THE BLEEP DO WE KNOW"....but trust me really pay attention if you watch it.

A couple more things that are in this movie: one object being in two places at once, that nothing actually touches, your brain actually records what you think you see, you are preprogrammed to do and think a certain way, your brain links everything together but by breaking a pattern you can change the way you feel...(now I am not an expert so these words are not fancy terms ya know)

Well hope you all enjoy and remember...wake up and plan your day or think of something happening and it will work out....BUT YOU MUST BELIEVE! :)

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SO HOW BORED ARE YOU?
YOU EVER SIT THERE AND CAN NOT THINK OF ANYTHING TO DO?
WELL RIGHT NOW THAT IS WHAT I AM DOING....SATURDAY NIGHT 7:53PM
YOU ALL ARE PROBABLY THINKING LOOSER RIGHT?
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AFTER LAST WEEKEND I HAD ENOUGH INTERESTING EVENTS HAPPEN TO LAST A WHILE (for those who were there you know what i am talking about) SORRY I AM UNABLE TO DISCLOSE WHAT HAPPENED FOR THOSE WHO WEREN'T THERE...JUST IMAGINE VERY DRUNK YOUNG UNDERAGE GIRLS AT A BAR TRYING TO BE ADULTS AND END UP LOOKING STUPID (and i am not talking about myself or my friends)
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Grandma's Boy...One of the silliest movies yet!

For those who have not seen this movie yet...you have to check it out. I am not one to go to the movies and spend a rediculous $8 a person to watch a movie I can rent 2 months later for $2.50 but my mom and I decided to have a girls night out and go see this movie. I know you are probably thinking your mom went and saw this with you? Well for those who know my mom you understand how awesome she is and for those who don't know her...well she is the best! My mom is like one of my girls most of the time, she still plays the MOM ROLE, but I tell her just about everything there is to know. Anyways about this movie...It was funny as hell and BEA is the best! She is a heavily medicated old lady who is so drugged up she has no clue what is going on...LOL! It is a Billy Madison Production so for those who like the funny but yet stupid movies go and check it out! Here is the link to the website...http://www.grandmasboymovie.com/grandmas_boy.php

I See What You Are Saying!

Have you ever seen it before it happens? The eyes can tell all if you know now how to read them! Pay close attention next time you are in a deep conversation with those you care about...and don't forget your eyes can tell all as well too. You don't want to get yourself caught up with your eyes to blame. They can tell the story before you are finished, it's like by the time you are in your 20's you have so many chapters in them that a person could spend hours looking and reading into them. Have you ever caught yourself staring into the eyes of the one you love? It is almost like you falling into a well and you are waiting for someone to catch you...that is usually when you realize how much you care, or when you start to realize love is in play...that is when you need to decide to continue to read the chapters or stop and shut the book.

The Best Christmas Wish Come True

THERE IS NOTHING BETTER THAN WHEN A LITTLE BOY OR GIRL GETS EXACTLY WHAT HE/SHE WANTS FOR XMAS FROM SANTA...THIS IS MY BEST FRIEND KRISTYS 4YR OLD SON, AND ALL HE WANTED WAS A MOTORCYCLE FOR XMAS...IF YOU HAVE KIDS YOU WILL UNDERSTAND EXACTLY WHAT THIS MEANS TO THEM (I DON'T HAVE ANY KIDS BUT THIS SWEET LITTLE BOY CAN MAKE ME SMILE AND LAUGH WHEN THINGS ARE AT THERE WORST AND BRINGS HAPPINESS TO HIS MOM AND EVERYONE HE COMES INTO CONTACT WITH) IF YOU COULD HAVE SEEN THE LOOK ON HIS FACE WHEN SANTA CAME PULLING INTO THE DRIVEWAY ON THIS LITTLE HONDA 50, HE IMMEDIATELY SAID "I TOLD YOU HE WOULD GET MY LETTER" I DON'T THINK ONE PERSON STANDING THERE HAD A DRY EYE AT THAT POINT!

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GO BUCKEYES!

(KRISTY, HER SON MATTHEW AND ME)
SO HOW ABOUT THOSE BUCKEYES? ALL I HAVE TO SAY TO ALL YOU HATERS IS......(4) Ohio St. 34, (5) Notre Dame 20
So what were you doing on Monday Jan.2,2006? If you were not at BW3's in Niles you missed out...I have been an Ohio State Buckeyes fan for many years now and every year that they have gone to the Championship game or any Bowl game I have either went to a party and once I was old enough to LEGALLY drink, I was at BW3's. This year every die hard fan in town was there unless they were in Arizona with the team cheering them on for every play! This year had to have been the best yet though we all had so much fun, me and Kristy (my bestfriend you will here about here a lot on this blog), and her son got there about 2pm (mind you the game didn't start until 4:30) but that is how crowded it gets we have learned that the hard way, so get there early, then b4 the game started Reed showed up, Mike V, the training crew, and well the list goes on so we had 2 big tables full and oh did it get rowdy! Well of course there had to be those couple Notre Dame people there who tried to enjoy the game, but ended up getting napkins thrown at them LOL! The game was great and Reed I think my hip is bruised. hahaha! For those who missed out on the fun hope to see you there next year when we go to the Championship! Hey by the way E we would beat Florida!

The Real Feeling that hurts...

Well Christmas came and left and so did New Years and for those who didn't know I spent New Years in Atlantic City...WOW I was so excited and by time I got there all I wanted was that New Years kiss and that wonderful man of mine to look at me and tell me through his eyes what I thought he felt. Boy was I wrong. So I got the kiss and the hug and whispers of how much he cared and couldn't wait till we could be together more, for those who don't know about the situation I will fill you in real quick because thats how long this lasted...I met this NAVY boy from VA who is originally from NJ and at first I was hestitant about it; one he is younger than me, two the whole long distance thing and last but definatly not least I have been hurt bad before and wasn't ready to get real involved but something about him drew me close and feelings got real strong and according to him he felt the same and it wasn't to get me into the sack cuz that didn't happen for a while...anywho we talked on the phone everyday many times for almost a month and then decided to take it a step further and have that title...eekkkkk boyfriend and girlfriend...so I went to VA for his NAVY xmas party and then to NJ and met his parents and friends from home, ok things were going great I was actually for the first time in a long time serious about this kid and he was already talking about our future together, yes a little soon I know but I had THAT FEELING...so I ran with it and it was great, now he was up here in Ohio one time to meet me in person before we actully got that title, so then Christmas and New YEars was coming and he was getting his leave from 12/29-1/9 so we decided I would go there for the weekend of New Years and I bought another plane ticket to go there and at this time things were still going real good and he seemed to really care and still talking about our future...so come Christmas day that FEELING started turning on me but I thought to myself "don't jump to conclusions not every guy is evil and out to hurt you" because he started with that shady shit guys do...you know "I am at a friends house and I am busy I will call you later" and when you ask what is going on you get the "nothing I am hanging out" Well because he does live on a ship with a shit load of people I let it go and understood that if one of his friends has a house it is ok he hangs out with whoever I TRUST HIM. Well now lets get to this lovely weekend I had just experienced...So I am in NJ having a great time with my boyfriend and meeting even more of his friends and family and we are discussing the weekend coming up (he is coming to Ohio) before he has to go back to the ship and everything is still going great. News YEars night comes and goes and all I thought about was what a great way to bring in the New YEars with a guy I plan on being with and building a future with, you know like he told me. So Monday morning comes and it is time for him to take me to the airport...as we are still in NJ and talking about me moving to VA and he says "well you know if you move down there you wouldn't have to live by yourself" so of course I am thinking to myself "ok he is serious about us" not that i am going to only move there for him because I actually was trying to move there with my job b4 I met him...Monday comes and goes and now it is Tuesday and I didn't talk to him for most of the day, he was sleeping like usual, and that DAMN FEELING IS BACK IN MY STOMACH AND HEART AGAIN, so when I finally talk to him I asked what was wrong and he said that he needed some space, SPACE DON"T WE HAVE LIKE 400 miles BETWEEN US? So he said that I call him too much, um HELLO he use to call me 20 times a day to, so when I get home we talk online and he says R U MAD? Well at this point that feeling was strong and I knew it wasn't good...and to make an even longer story short he comes at me with...I need my space BLAH BLAH I am confused, I don't want a serious relationship, we need to slow down, BLAH BLAH then that feeling came out of his mouth I CAN"T BE WITH YOU! He says "I do care about you and that is why I am telling you this now" UM HI don't you think you should have about a month ago? I mean he is such a nice kid and I really didn't expect this but hey when THAT FEELING COMES THE FIRST TIME I GUESS I SHOULD HAVE NOT LET IT HURT ME. So no Ohio visit single again and another heartbreak, I really care about him and I am just wondering...is it ever going to be my time?

THE DOME? OR HAWAII?

SUN?

SNOW?

WAIT IT'S OHIO AND WELL

IT COULD RAIN, SNOW, OR BE 60...

The Start of it All

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